now you figured out she was a friend girl, not a girlfriend, Dinkin flicka!

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=friend+girl

>Hi. I am a Korean male in early 30’s currently dating a Taiwanese girl of the same age. We have met through professional contact and so far both getting along very well… I must admit that I am totally crazy about her and she is crazy about me as well. However, during one of our conversations I found out that she used to date a white boyfriend before. In addition to that, she admitted to having been intimate with him several times while they dated. Now, I am a gentleman and I don’t go into doing “wild thing” straightaway. Initially, this discovery didn’t really affect me. However, after some time passed, I started to think about this more and more… now it’s really getting to me in my thoughts. I try to let it go and think of it as a past deed, but I can’t erase the mental picture of her and her ex in my mind!! I am going insane about this… Obviously, I didn’t tell my girlfriend about this, but I don’t know how to calm my thoughts… was it a mistake to openly discuss our past? I told her of my ex-girlfriends and even told her ‘how many’… but she didn’t seem to be affected by that. Why, oh, why, on the other hand, do I feel such a pang of jealousy and pain??? I try to appear as calm and not affected about this whenever I am with her… but deep inside me, I feel so hurt. Why should I feel this way?